Hey sorry I haven’t been on in a while. My life has been turned upside down. Where do we begin? Maybe from the start... A situation happened out of my control. Maybe I deserved it because I started to get to smug with myself or maybe it’s what others would call a string of bad luck. Through all of this I have turned in to a person whom I don’t recognize. A person whom people don’t want to be around or talk to. A person whom the people closest to me talk about. There are times when I feel that I could kill someone. Then I realize that person is me. I could kill my hopes, my dreams, my wants, and my destiny. Then I remember GOD and I think there is no way he could abandon me yet I don’t feel him... at least not like I used to. I had to leave my job. My husband committed a crime which has upturned our lives and I’m struggling to makes ends meet. Nothing that seems to hard except it seems we can’t get out of this funk. I’m seeking prayer and inspiration from every angle and finding most things are empty. Thank God for my church’s bible club and Sunday school I have found so much joy in being with these kids that it has become the most exciting aspect of my life. I know that I should forgive but I have to deal with this anger. If I don’t then it will eat me alive. I can honestly say that this is one of the lowest points in my life. I really do not know what to do about it. But I thank God that I’m still here to at least change it.
